Telling Myself the Truth

The the true to Me\nI never truly knew myself until the end of my freshman socio-economic class in lavishly gear coach. I thought I was ugly, a also-ran, and would never be considerably enough. I was nervous sack into my freshman stratum and I knew I would do anything to scoff in and feel give care I was accepted. My freshman year of high inculcate taught me the rectitude to myself because I hit st one bottom. The events that led me to hit contestation bottom were hanging stunned with the wrong crowd, political partying, and boys.\nGoing into high school I did non know anyone that would be attending that I was already friends with, so it did non take me dogged to fall into a ill crowd. By the time school had started, I had make friends with multitude who take in, drank, and had meaningless sex. As a freshman in high school I did non digest much in common with my so called friends I did not like to drink, I only cede smoked once, and I was a virgin. In orde r to hang break through with my friends I was going to contract to join in on these activities, even though I knew it was wrong. If I said no, I would be deemed a loser and no longer a part of a assemblage and all the haul was on me to fit in and bring in friends. This is when I first started to party every weekend that close.\nEvery weekend was a party with my friends whether it was a colossal blowout or only when a handful of us hanging out in a basement to run shorther. The activities is what made it a party not the size. Every weekend include of drinking and smoking. Every sunlight morning I would consequence up with a long hangover and think this is what pack in high school do, so I have to also. All of this partying with my girlfriends led to the pressure of being with a boy.\nAs a virgin it is scary when your friends start talking about their hookups and pressure you to do the same. I had made out with one boy and was scared to do more, still my friends were not . I would have to suck it up and get past making out. in that respect was pressure to lose my virginity, but I was not sort of ready for that and I managed to ...